Thursday, November 4, 2010

Some things just Stink!


Alex is a little Stinker! But wait...






It runs in the family!!!

I'm sure that Steve, Jill and Alex really smelled quite divine! But some things in life really stink! I have been working on getting into a clinical trial with a Triple Negative Breast Cancer specialist at UCSF. I did manage to get an appointment with her.....for January. In the meantime, I am getting my port inserted tomorrow and they are getting me ready to have some kind of treatment.

That's all I know..........until next Thursday. It has already been 10 days since I told my Doctor in Redding that Doctor Rugo from UCSF would call or email her to discuss my case. (Her comment was "we don't do email"). And now they want me to wait another week? Plus, we are spending some time with Sarah & Shane, Steve & Jill, and Alex next week. Our plan was to have a time with just them where we could explain things better, they could ask questions, and we can laugh and cry together.

I am sure we will laugh and cry together, but don't know how much 'splaning we'll be doing. So I asked the Lord to help me and I called and asked again if I could find out what they had decided to do with me. (I had already asked once and they told me I would find out next Thursday). I explained that not only did I want to know before that, but that we wanted to be able to tell the kids what the plan was. So I left a message for the nurse, who will listen to the message "every half-hour", talk to the Doctor and get back to me. I'm sorry, but that STINKS!

But when you really think about it, there are a lot of things that "stink" in our world! Things we have control over, things we don't have control over. Things that effect us, things that effect people we don't know. If you are going to live, if you are going to die. But, wait a minute, when I put my gaze on the world these things STINK, but when I put my gaze towards heaven and what my life will be when I get there, the stink turns to a sweet fragrance that makes you not afraid or reluctant to go.

Isaiah says in Isaiah 6 ..."I saw the Lord, high and exalted, seated on a throne; and the train of His robe filled the temple. Above Him were seraphim, ....calling to one another: "Holy, Holy, Holy is the LORD Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.

That's where I want to keep my gaze! It brings hope, joy, peace and comfort!

1 comment:

  1. You gave me chills at the end of your post! I will be praying that you will find something out soon!!

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